a strange summer

it came like the big one

like the night thief you never expect
this summer came packaged in many ways
which i can’t quite put it into words

but something deep was happening.

i don’t know how but summer changed me
i flew across the atlantic to a place id long been 

avenues, alleys and churches recognized me
and after a decade of weathering i saw a familiar face
a younger, a cleaner version of myself
but i couldnt fill the gap, what would i say

that this strange land will forever change you
so i watched and decided to let him figure it out.
this clarity is haunting, i cant stop thinking about it

it's eating me from within that your face will soon be hollow

for all these words feel numb
they now are part of this alien world with no meaning
but i haven't really followed through and im sorry.

im walking in circles in the foolish comfort
that your thin lips would remain the same
but i know that is no longer true
and as much as id like to ping it
im finally going to let this pillar of salt fade   

because i can't connect with what i feel

knowing full well that there is no poetry that exists
in explaining what it is to know you.